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Tuesday, May 29, 2007
i'll always be there for u..
be there to love u and be with you
i really really want and i do know you really really want too but not me. ):
im still waiting.. waiting for you to catch up and we'll walk together.
theres nth more i can do except to be there for you when u're bleeding and kiss the pain away..

im always there to love to be with you... <3

I hope, I wish, Have Faith./ 9:13 PM

RAAAH stats lectures is getting more n more mentally taxing. damn sian-ed thru out la wanna slp but cant slp. alritey gotta go do my accounting tutorial liaoz.

I hope, I wish, Have Faith./ 11:24 AM

Monday, May 28, 2007
im going crazy watching you go crazy over him.
ironic yes yet real.

I hope, I wish, Have Faith./ 12:33 PM

Saturday, May 26, 2007
^^ back from watching pirates at the cathay~ its the only near 3 hours movie that i didnt feel utterly bored. i'll rate it 4/5 coz of the action and romance~ ooh such love, 10 years have 1 session of sex. hmm hows that? people say that things that are done once in a blue moon are those that's memorable. =D ah well, halfway thru the movie emotions were evoked once again =/ ok now to the best part of the night.. FONDLING WITH YQ WAS WOOTZ and im not gay =D its just me ^^ muahahahah.

such strong emotions yet it is diminishing with every passing day.
evoked yet suppressed down deep within...
its me or its the situation that makes me suppress it, i dont know.
all i know is that this feeling wont stay for long
will things ever change?
all these are merely words not actions, its merely THOUGHTS not ACTS.
self-deny-ing is just like masturbation, you feel good until you realise u're screwing urself up.
i need you. do u need me?
i reckon yet im denying that very fact.
i miss you to the extent i'll rush over anytime just for a glance at any cost. will you?
i believe you will and u can but thats only my sole belief in my dreams.
running after someone without the person looking back at you and encouraging is tiring.
tired = rest.
whats up after rest? left with 2 choices, start again or look for other routes.
=/ thats all of my rants ^^

I hope, I wish, Have Faith./ 1:38 AM

Thursday, May 24, 2007
hmm.. nth much to blog abt =/ anyone noes where to buy lavender essential oils? those that can help pple slp well one ^^ tag me if u noe! im sourcing for it coz one of my fren has bad insomnia ): ^^

okie i go do my night hobby liao ^^ waiting for cong to dota. MARIKO~~~

I hope, I wish, Have Faith./ 10:11 PM

Wednesday, May 23, 2007
WHOO HOO. im feeling good and hyper nowadays ^^ letting go of something is shiokness man. =D and i shall share a part of my conversation i have with my dearie qii(:


mixed feelings. says:
are u home.?
Good Food + Good Friends ---> GOOD LIFE. Eye Candies are my doctors. change of mindset (: says:
yepz. y?
mixed feelings. says:
lol okay stupid qn
mixed feelings. says:
--.-
mixed feelings. says:
LOL

^^ i just read her blog and realised that qii wanna work hard for SAJC and go in thru DSA ^^ its not easy huh, i tried AJC one and altho we were the best players for the DSA ( as said by mr.leng ) still didnt get selected. jia you wor CHEN MEIQI. not only practice for music! ur CHINESE, AMATHS and more la i lazy to type out, practically everything that u wanna ace better start clearing topics now ^^ =D

okie back to ME. Zzz stayed back sch to do project today, 3 hours and NOT PRODUCTIVE. NOT PRODUCTIVE AT ALL. Zzz i rather my mates dont stay at all if all they're gonna do is play mario and stuffs, its distracting u know. Zzz i've just realised i do not have good communication skills and im scared to express my feelings to them. Oh yea they do stay back and do but do they produce? im worried about my project. wheeee its ok i dont bear any grudge against any of them ^^ thats them, this is me. ^^ =D

IM SO SO EAGER TO GO OUT WITH MY GAYS THIS FRIDAY NIGHT! movie~ PIRATES yahOOOOOOoooo. RAWRRRrrrrrrrr it's been so damn long since we've went out together muahah something to look forward to this weekend FINALLY no more boredom on friday nights. ^^ i hope everyone will be present la AND i'll share what brandon said to me just now.

brandon : hey you going this fri?
me: yea y ?
brandon : oh i just said i was going, been long time since i gay with you all.

CAN U ALL IMAGINE THIS? oh my brandon wanna gay! im sure we'll all be glad to COMPLY HAHA. gay-ing is fun ^^ its just the same as how girls grope each other. =D

OH AND, my lecture grp has 3 official eye-candies ! muahah, i'll most probably go get 2/3 de contacts after the june 2 weeks break ^^ ah well poly is a new start =D

I hope, I wish, Have Faith./ 9:35 PM

Eamon - I Don't Want You Back Lyrics
Aww ohh no no no no
Verse one:See, i don't know why, i like you so much
I gave you all of my trust
I told you, i loved you
Now that's all down the drain
You put me through pain
I wanna let you know how i feel
Chorus:Fuck what i said it don't mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw them out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you you hoe i don't want you back(repeat)
Verse two:You thought, you could keep this shit from meYeah, you burned bitch, i heard the story
You played me, you even gave him head
Now you're asking for me backYou're just another hack
Look elsewhere cuz you're done with me
Chorus:Fuck what i said it don't mean shit now
Fuck all the presents might as well throw them out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you you ho i don't want you back(repeat)
Oh oh uh huh yeahOh oh uh huh yeahOh oh uh huh yeahOh oh uh huh yeah
Verse three:You questioned, did i care
You can ask anyoneI even said you were my great one
Now its, over but i do admit im sad
It hurts real badI can't sweat that cuz i loved a hoe
Chorus:Fuck what i said it don't mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw them out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you you hoe i don't want you back
Ending:Oh oh aww aww yeah
Oh oh aww aww yeah
Oh oh aww aww yeah
Oh oh aww aww yeah
Oh oh aww aww yeah don't mean shit now
Oh oh aww aww yeah throw them out
Oh oh aww aww yeah didn't mean jack
Oh oh aww aww yeah don't want you back



posted during my economics lecture. (:

I hope, I wish, Have Faith./ 11:25 AM

^^ qd has a new mindset as of today ^^ and im so so so late coz waiting for my classmates to finish their dota game. (: i remember 1 sentence that my fren told me nong nong ago.

When u're courting a girl, shes the princess and u're the slave
When you have successfully courted the girl, shes the slave and you're the king.

^^ makes sense doesnt it? (: alrite i shall get going for my lecture liaoz. ^^

I hope, I wish, Have Faith./ 11:00 AM

Tuesday, May 22, 2007
i really wonder times after times. its so GOD DAMN MIGHTY HOLY SUPER DUPER ULTRA IRRITATING.

i wonder how can one's mood be easily swinged just by WORDS alone.
i've REALISED how easy one's mood can be swinged.
AND i REMEMBER watching a clip on sign languages they said that sign languages are as good or even powerful than WORDS and languages.
YET from my experience, that was all bullshit utter crap aka nonsense.

people.. i've learnt it the hard way, please do not try this.


ps im trying to be a poet in this post, forgive me if it doesnt rhymes.

I hope, I wish, Have Faith./ 10:05 PM

Monday, May 21, 2007
BOO ! this post is dedicated for my dear QI & it hurts to see u in misery ):
oh well. i dont know how to HELP except telling u that i KNOW and REALLY DO know how u're feeling when things just start running in ur mind.
I CAN SEE AND CAN FEEL THAT... u are so so so so happy to receive that beautiful keychain ^^ ALSO judging from the way u reacted just now at msn.. u are exhilarated when theres a nice topic and nice chat going on wif u and hmm mr.doctor xD soo.. OH WELL! i wish u well eh? okie time to tell u that i've just posted this ^^ ((: If so many things are left unspoken, speak up my child, and u'll find relieve. If things are being left undone, do them and u'll find peace ^^

CHEERS! and DONT EVER EVER start a msn conversation with me BY "SIGH"

AND to mr.doctor if u ever read this, i swear im gonna cut up ur throat if u dont wake up from ur bloody idea. TAG ME IF U DUN UNDERSTAND WAD I MEAN BY UR BLOODY IDEA.

oh well im exaggerating, i'll just look down on u ^^ not to the point of committing a crime. ^^

I hope, I wish, Have Faith./ 7:38 PM

((: woke up today at 8.15am and guess wad was my dream last night. it was about waking up from a beautiful dream. i dreamt of waking up from a beautiful dream, how ironic is that. anyways ^^ im not gonna be tormented anymore and snapping out of it ^^ reality awaits me ((:

muahah im OFF to breakfast with my 2 darlings~ jeff and juncong~ WHEEEEEE ANOTHER WEEK OF SCH!

I hope, I wish, Have Faith./ 8:20 AM

Sunday, May 20, 2007
as all of u guys can hear.. MY BLOG HAS MY FAV SONG UPLOADED ALREADY! I LOVE MAS MAS FOR THIS SECOND.

whoo today went to coffee bean and study wif jeff. pretty unproductive. Zzz. waited 1 hour to settle down and really start doing serious work. BECAUSE OF THOSE IDIOTS. wanna leave YET their ass stays on the seat. damn irritating can walked around whole of bishan to find a suitable place and conducive environment to study in and we still ended up in coffee bean.
OH and one interesting fact of the day, never choose a seat facing 3 girls that are equipped with powerful hp cams. IT CAN TURN OUT TO BE A DISASTER. i've just discovered that girls can take foto of themselves anytime, anywhere, anyhow.

AND EMO PART COMING, WARNING TO ALL

halfway thru my studying.. i've decided to take a break and chat wif my dear QI and whoa she was a great help. a NEGATIVE help i mean. with the lyrics all from her and sending of songs over to me.. i've became very very very "imaginative" so many WHY WHY WHY popped out la.
am i undesireable? why cant i stop? why is my world revolving ard my doctor ( qi u know WHO) why i cant stop tinking? seriously so many why and IF ONLY pops out.
if only i didnt get fall sick and meet my doctor. if only i didnt sink myself into it. if only i did something when there was hope. IF ONLY AND WHY ALL.

im just ranting my nonsense ^^ im not blaming anyone but myself ):

I hope, I wish, Have Faith./ 9:20 PM

Saturday, May 19, 2007
things that are beautiful to an individual might not be beautiful to others.
sigh. theres always the irritating time of the day, and its another saturday at HOME. im amazed. im appalled. im powerless.

I hope, I wish, Have Faith./ 10:47 PM

sighh,
i dont know why pple like to screw themself up?
i've learnt in my economics module that theres an opportunity cost whenever we have to choose between 2 DESIRE. on paper, its easy but on real life, its screwed, so screwed.
AND
why do pple like to do things that are often the harder way? or shld i say CHOOSE to be hard on themself, knowing that theres another way out but they still stick on the same spot is this stubborn-ness or what? i dont know coz im one of them.
LASTLY
i truely believe in the saying of IGNORANCE IS BLISS ( ty QI ((: ) knowing too much is torturous YET humans still wanna know this is why i think the saying " curiosity kills the cat " derived from.

OK BACK TO NORMAL FONT. ((: i wanna go out today grr anywhere anytime but have to be TODAY. i dont wanna rot at home. someone jio me out pls ty ^^

I hope, I wish, Have Faith./ 11:27 AM

asked mike to play inhse game and he said "lol ok" ip pasted to him and guess whats his first sentence?

bala partiban " ready to lose noobs"
last sentence " hurry the fuck up and maybe i'll spare you some chance"

AND SINCE JEFF requested. i really do tink ur SF is cursed. i have not won any matches wif ur SF yet T.Tness. ok game starting ! ((:

I hope, I wish, Have Faith./ 2:48 AM

Friday, May 18, 2007
RAWRRRRRRRR 2nd post and 1st post wif my EMO TEMPLATE whee. 1 word to describe poly life, STRESS VS sec which is like so relax its giveup tiring for poly especially doing projects. anyway... i've came up with an interesting analogy xD

EYE CANDIES are my painkillers and blah blah is my painkillers ^^ ( close frens will know )

TODAY i tried dota with touchpad for 1st time and i swear not to play again with my laptop without a mouse ):

i nid a breakkkkkk and i didnt expect myself to be saying TGIF when its poly coz my past view of poly is that its SLACK. so.. TGIF FOR EVERYONE ! OFF TO GAMING! WHEEEE

I hope, I wish, Have Faith./ 7:47 PM

Thursday, May 17, 2007
i've finally started a blog and this is so irony coz i've been saying that blogging is so boring blah blah yet i've realised that blogging is just another channel to express yourself so... ^^ here i am. nth much to say tho. ^^ im easily contented yet its an irony that im finding myself not being contented with the present. will it change? will it sway? will it happen? im hoping ^^

I hope, I wish, Have Faith./ 6:35 PM

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