^^ got back my stats and acc results.
total disappointment man.
oh well, cant expect much frm not studying.
results of playing too much dota. grrr damn.
now,my mouse is SPOILT/DEAD
CANT PLAY ANYMORE.
how timely is that huh? ^^
guess i'll juz really mug for 3 weeks and POOF my 4weeks holiday !
then..
i'll plan to get a razer copperhead! and maybe a cool keyboard.
and a new phone definitely
and i really wanna go overseas to relaxxx.
cant stand it watching my siblings going overseas having fun.
^^ watching is good, experiencing is better !

oh and i juz got to know its 4 more weeks to O lvls prelims
buck up eh sec4's. time really flies man.
juz did my deferment for NS. gosh, i'll be enlisting at march 2010. wad the hell. crap. cant imagine how it'll be like.

aaah, i guess at this age really gotta play hard and seriously have fun like every other 17 year olds. i need some catalyst in my life man, so boring and dead. gotta speed up the process and poof have fun. :D


qd aims to PANG SAI KOR PIA ( hokkien phrase for working hard )
WCG in 1 more day ! (:

BACKSTREET BOYS LYRICS
"The Call"
[Phone rings girl picks up]
[Girl:] "Hello?"
[AJ:] (lot's of people talking in background)"Hi it's me what's up baby?
I'm sorry listen I'm gonna be late tonight so don't stay up and wait for me ok?"
[Girl:] "Where are you?"
[AJ:] [people get louder] "Wait wait say that again?"
[Girl:] "Hello?"
[AJ:] "You're really dropping out I think my battery must be low.
Listen if you can hear me we're goin to a place nearby, alright? Gotta go"
[click]

Let me tell you the story about the call that changed my destiny
Me and my boys went out, just to end up in mysery
I was about to go home and there she was standing in front of me
Said 'Hi, I got a little place nearby
Wanna go?', I should have said 'No'Someone's waiting for me
But I called my girl up and said

Listen Baby I'm sorry
Just wanna tell you don't worry
I will be late don't stay up and wait for me
I'll say again you're dropping out my battery is low
So you know we're goin to a place nearby
I gotta go

Now two years gone, nothing's been won
I can't take it back what's done is done
One of her friends found out
That she wasn't my only one
And it eats me from inside, that she's not by my side
Just because I made that call and lied

Listen Baby I'm sorryJust wanna tell you don't worry
I will be late don't stay up and wait for me
I'll say again you're dropping out my battery is low
So you know we're goin to a place nearby
I gotta go

[Break with repetitive "Baby baby I'm sorry, and "Hello?"]

Let me tell you the story about the call that changed my destiny
Me and my boys went out, just to end up in mysery
I was about to go home and there she was standing in front of me
Said I, I got a little place nearby
Gotta go

Listen Baby I'm sorryJ
ust wanna tell you don't worry
I will be late don't stay up and wait for me
I'll say again you're dropping out my battery is low
So you know we're goin to a place nearby
Gotta go

Listen Baby I'm sorry
Just wanna tell you don't worry
I will be late don't stay up and wait for me
I'll say again you're dropping out my battery is low
So you know we're goin to a place nearby
We're goin to a place nearby
Gotta go

[sound of phone hanging up]


^^ wonderful by backstreet boys ! ^^

^^ i wonder how will this pursuit turn out to be.
oh well, im juz gonna get a hair cut and maybe dye my hair for a change ^^ (: hope it'll look good after i done it :D ciaoS! going match, gotta reach my quota of 2 match per day :D i solo-ed viper today ! won sf~ :D

!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i had the sweetest dream ! oh gawd. wad is happening man. ! this feeling, feels so familiar yet so strange.

im afraid yet i want to
it is that fear, the very one that bogged me
can i do it? i question =(
maybe all these are just a delusion.
deluding myself feels good.

grrr wads with that emo feeling early in the morning. oh well :D im a contented man FOR NOW.
alrite ! i shall talk abt my dream now!
i dreamt of... my wedding 8 years down the road, at 25 age ! i cant remember my fiancee but ! i believe its her :D it was her that made me remember how sweet dreams feels like. all i can remember is only wedding at 25 years old =X

whoo, suddenly feelings came back. and all the rush of emotions torrented my mind. ^^ am serious here ^^ all whose fault? jeff's ty. damn he brought back that same situation. that feeling. thx to this phrases of words.

Im so disappointed
that i mean so little to you.
Im shattered.
Because you mean SO MUCH yet i mean SO LITTLE.
and yes, im going crazy watching you go crazy over him.

that feeling is something so strong that cant be forgotten =( oooooooh my goodness.
damn now i dont feel like sleeping.
sigh. i remember something my conductor told us. " If you want something real hard, you will get it eventually " =( guess it doesnt applies to relationship matters.
" I REALLY REALLY WANT " " just a chance, i really want a chance "

for all those out there, i really hope u guys out there get your chance and get what you want, especially the dream girl out there ^^

something is juz pulling me down, maybe its like the earth bound spirit in bleach, tied down to things that they're attached to. ^^ oh well, holiday rox, i wish and wish i'll get back myself after this holiday. :D ^^

cheers (: QingDa!

wassup pple! =/ tonight sidebet match at bukit timah lanshop $100 per game. o.O am feeling nervous :D hopefully my team will not screwup and gg no $$ for weekend. =( ^^

oh and CHEN MEIQI, bo ke = BLOGGER. bu luo ge = BLOG. u NOE? ^^
^^
off to computer class. bb.

o.O now in sch's com lab doing project soon.

oh yea last night went to celebrate yq's bdae. ^^ that gay mofo! xD i know he doesnt reads my blog :D

afta eating ding tai feng i went back with jeff and mike. came back to amk kpool and pool-ed for 1 hr + left at ard 10+pm. afta dat i walked to bus station wif jeff when we discussed abt his nick. " Is it necessary?"

theres lots of scenario that applies to is it necessary.

1st, is it necessary to have a gf? and if no, why not?
i personally feel that having a gf is like a bonus in life, it is not NEEDED, BUT it does improves your life and makes your life feels more complete as a WHOLE. however, friends are equivelent to almost a gf aint it? except theres some things that frens cant do ^^

2nd, is it necessary to hang on a thin line of hope?
nah, in the past, i'd say yes, a hope is a hope. BUT when the time comes lets say, the girl you fancy got attached or smth. it'd be hell for you ^^ therefore, never hang on to something that you know is not gonna work out. jeff~ if u read this, you shld noe wad i mean eh. ^^ quotes chek " cut off all connections " aint this the best way out?
i mean really, being in 1 sided love is like in a maze where your in it and your so owned by the maze. this is where outsiders can come in and give you advice from the TOP. for jeff, i advice u to detach yourself from that feeling. seriously ^^

alrite thats abt it. ^^ my project mate is eating mr.potato chips and staring at the screen ^^ anybody wanna noe how she looks like can pm me for her pic or smth :D project time ^^

Whoo. CAPL TMR at CINELEISURE. my 2nd competitive dota compy! lalalalalala.



oh, i've been talking alot abt relationships and girl stuffs with my classmates during tutorials. things like, how possessive can a guy be and how protective they can be. i guess its up to every single individual bah. =D hong wei has the same tinking as me anyway. (: oh and i've been tinking abt it. something that has been discussed before.



is breaking up a couple considered a bastard thing?

it depends.

like theres 2 scenario whereby the bf treats the gf nicely and they're blissfully in love. if any guy comes in between this kind of couple will be defined to me as a bastard.



however,

if there is already an existing problem and both parties are not getting anything from the relationship except sadness and hardship, i believe it'd be understandable to go in between them. P.S going in between them doesnt mean saying bad things behind her bf back or smth liddat, i meant going after the girl openly or smth. (:

ooooh. and how to really gauge if a couple will last? discussed abt it too :D
lets say couple A.
they got to know each other totally like absolutely know each other's character in like 1-2months. it'd be no fun isnt it? relationship is about getting to know more of the other party day by day, week by week, month by month. knowing each other too well will mean that theres a high chance that they'd be bored of each other. yea? ^^
on the other hand, couple B
which is the opposite, they will be discovering more and more of their other partner slowly and being kept intrigued and interested in this relationship. for those attached pple out there, have u ever wondered what makes u increasing ur love for each other? its the flame.

to put it short, couple A will have a BIG FIRE yet not lasting fire, and couple B will have a strong, steady growing fire which will be kept going by the love that fuels it everyday.

oh well, my classmates say the same goes for the intimate actions. lets say couple A hold hands in like 1week and french kisses in like 2weeks, dont u tink the "flame" theory applies? ^^

all those above wasnt directed at any particular couple, its juz what i've gossiped with my classmates (: ^^

To let go is too painful, to hang on may also be painful.

^^ its the PAST. whoo. the feelings just dies off. its like a TIMELINE.

dejected - no mood - getting back to other activities - recovered !

(: now im gonna concentrate on my sch work more and my new budding dota team ! our team name for now is...

LESBOS` ! ! !


whoo its my first ever competitive dota team! i shall work hard to train and guide the rest who're new. and being calm is another thing Zzz.

i guess i play better when im not playing with jeff and frens. STEPPING OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE.

yaHOOOOoooooooooooooooo