Wednesday, June 13, 2007
guess 1 year + ending already. or should i say it has ended? nah i still cant say that with confidence.
one day, soon i'll be able to say " its the past " as confidently as you. i HOPE so.
i remember juncong once said. a blog is useful in expressing and relieving pain FOR THE starting but in the long run, it'll be painful as it constantly reminds you of your pain, opens up those wounds repeatedly. just because i've been hurt countless time doesnt mean im used to the pain am i?
let me tell you. i am NOT. ok.
oh yea. so this is gonna be my last post bah. im gonna either leave it rot or delete it soon. and i'll get a real diary, where im able to write EVERYTHING in words that exactly represents my feelings. for now, its all sadness. i've forgotten how to feels like to be loved. ?
can someone blame me plz? for all the pain i've brought upon to myself.? maybe being blamed at will make me feel better?
i thought i can get used to it. i really felt that way..
i was childish to actually believe that miracles do exists.
i was naive to actually thought that things will stay the same.
i was retarded to be so easily contented.
guess this is the final blow. in chek's term.
you either eat the fruit when its ripe, or let it rot and say bye bye.
so pple out there.. eat your fruit when its ripe or you'll learn a painful lesson. ^^
bb my 2 months old blog. ^^
I hope, I wish, Have Faith./ 11:08 AM
