selfish... its really scary to feel that.. i shiver at the slightest slight that u're blissfully living.. i squirm at the thought that things are going alright.... im falling.. into the abyss of no return.. someone pull me up. PRETTY PLEASE? its either make it or break it. i can feel it coming, the 2nd choice. im BREAKING. like what jeff said to me today.. cut off all contacts huh? i shall attempt that.. its like living in seclusion? i'll need to go out wif my buddies more den. to take my mind off some matters. everything necessary has been done and said. what more can i offer/do. today has been disastrous or should i say 30mins ago started the disaster. a torrent of thoughts flooded my mind. i wonder if theres any place i can be alone and shout out my thoughts, those thoughts that cant be posted up here.. only to be kept inside me. why.? was knowing you a mistake from the start? or was falling into this my bad? wadever.. its still my fault. i cant find any reason to blame others. selfish me. i just wanna be happy. thats all? screw sch work screw everything else. i just want happy.
ooooh and thx oscar ( if you ever read ) for your MISTER DONUTS. its nice ^^ choco with bulky sugar bits. (: at least that 3 hours spent in azure was sufficient to put a (: on my blog tonight.
I hope, I wish, Have Faith./ 12:06 AM
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20 Years old
Cheong Qing Da
Student of NYP SBM
Proud member of SBM Club
EX member of CBSS band and CHEERDIAC GROOVERS
the loves
LOVES hanging out
Mambo Jambo is my happy pill
AIMS TO GO Local-U
I'm dying inside to hold you.
I couldn't believe what i felt for you,
Dying inside, i was dying inside.
But i couldnt bring myself to touch you,
1 Hello, change my life.
I didn't believe in love at first sight.
But you have shown me what it's like
